Pleasure

What an interesting and rewarding day! Truly.

It began with today's entry in Dine with Me, Real Food for the Hungry Spirit, a devotional by Jana Spicka. What was it about? Pleasure. It convicted me in a whole new way, I must say. Because I really don't do anything just for the joy of it. I work, I sleep, I eat, I follow hard after God, sometimes I hang out with people or dance... I'm an intense person. Pleasure does get lost in my life, right out missed. But it's important to God:

You make known to me the path of life;
You will fill me with joy in Your presence,
with eternal pleasures at Your right hand. 
                               Psalm 16:11


So it was a real challenge. It was difficult even to think of what I would do just for pleasure, especially when I can't go outside. Then it occurred to me: I love to lie in bed. Not rushing getting up, just enjoying the warmth of the covers on a snowy day, reading, listening to music, just lying around. As I write this, it honestly sounds scandalous to me, not to do anything. So of course I did it. And it was glorious- drifting in and out of sleep, reading, enjoying some music. Lovely. I take pleasure in being slow. My nature is not to rush anything. And tonight after I did yoga, I just lay in the floor, cozied up to the heater, and listened to music. I used to do these things, in middle school, before I got a job. Then "real life" happened, and I had no idea how to handle it.

It's honestly a total revelation to me that it's ok to do that sometimes. I have a false view of God. He's changing that view to Truth. Slowly I'm beginning to walk as if He gives me grace, as if He doesn't give me the evil eye when I mess up or am not sure what to do. Lovely to be journeying here, walking into a truth that's the biggest relief of my life. Praise You, Jesus.

Along the same lines, today's blog by Jana, "Playing in the Sand."